no one to talk to or i dun feel like talking

no

i dont need to talk.

i just need someone to be right beside me.

just like that!!!!

u shouldnt let me feel this way.

no u shouldnt.

yes u dont deserve this then wat about me wat about me wat about me?!!!!

im the one who's fucking not okay right now! u made me.

yes im irrasional cause im emotional.

and u're bastard u're a jerk, right now to me u're watever shit-ass-words!

please just let me. let me blame. i dun care anymore. i can't lost temper.

that's y.

please.

let me.

leave me.

fuck the title.

I pondered.

And i decided to start this entry. cause it's my fucking blog.

I told u. I won't find things to fight if there's nothing worth to do so.

The 6th sense says it all.

Perhaps it might be my overthought sometimes, but something odd does exist.

It's not the matter of you've forgotten what's today's date.

U don't know how to analyze, i analyze for you.

You didn't know today's date. But don't tell me you fucking didn't know what day is today.

And, knowing what day it is today, surely u will know when is the 12th.

But, u didn't.

You didn't fucking check out when is the 12th.

And this says?

That is the matter.

:)

It is somehow the bittersweet moment that makes such cold night warm.

quoted.

B1-8-8

the messy room. the bed. the dusty printer. the candy paper with the alphabat H and J. the paper bag all over the floor. the overload laundry bag. the annoying alarm. the lunch wake up call. the balcony. the ashtray. the emtpy bottles. the fall-asleep-in-3-min-roommate.

i miss typing those words,

machi, mana lu?

machi, wat time's ur class finish?

machi, later go where makan?

machi i tell you ah i damn pekchek now! fuck that bitch man!

"okay! story me l8r!"

machi, machi, machi...

machi,

i miss you so.

balcony o' balcony

i miss the balcony.
i miss my roommate and her shoulder,
no matter it's that shoulder that i lied on or that shoulder that i aligned with.
whenever i was so upset, that balcony was the best spot ever. nothing's gonna beat it.
missing those time when i was sitting there, alone or with roommie, looking at the dark sky.. there's nothing special about the scenery, but i was just addicted in sitting there.



and last night,
i need that balcony.

Upcoming Bali Trip

Pictures credit to Villa Kecapi

I pray hardly they won't fool us with the pictures. lol
p/s: I've got my bikini and dress from VS, much more earlier than the expected arrival date and i've no regret buying them cause they're true to size, and very lovely!!!

oO.. I can feel Bali breeze... <3

picci-pics [part I]

I'm sick.

Finals result is out today! I got it all passed.
so now i can shout out loud:

I MISS FOR BEING A STUDENT!!!
and being called skip class queen.
hahaha

phhhuuuu... u have no idea how long i've wanted to shout that out. but u know, i got too many pantang larangs. i scared if i shouted out before the result released, mmu asks me to go back for classes.
*gasp*
Thank Gawd! woooooot!

Another tons of long lost pics. Taken few months ago.
It's time to rewind. =)
.
.
.
Hmmm...
Guess i'll never have the chance to get back to the same balcony.




Maybe someday.
With some other feeling.

Damn i miss her a lot! like, damn lot!

Pics were taken at Barcelona. not clubbing but just a boring session at barcelona after some dinner. aye?
Look at her. she's so happy that she had me.
muahaha

jer.
i miss her too.
this is epin, take few more look please while she still has some meat on her cheek in this pic.

NOW NO MORE MEAT LAR PIN!!!

lalalala. At C.Banana with Tammy on Valentine's eve.
That was a sudden.
I just dragged in by this lady when i just wanted to pass her her scarf.
Yea. Without make up.
and most importantly, with wearing Crocs.
Steady.

Ee.. random at topshop fitting room. I didn't buy this.

Another day out with my boy, and had lunch
@ Paddington

Night out with my boy
@ Republic

*long sigh*
I miss my long long hair.
and the big big bun.

See. Don't you miss my hair too?

14th Feb '09

The cupids hit me once again on that day.
I fell in love again.
They say you'll only learn how to appreciate when u lost something.
I thought I lost you, boy.
But I'm blessed, fate gave me another chance to be loved and love,
and to appreciate at the same time.
I will not forget what u have done to get me back.
I will not forget how u've wanted to surprise me.
Everything you've done,
is safely kept in the deepest side of my heart.

I might be mean to you at times,
I might be out of control at times,
just because i love you like i never do.
Every now and then, i'll be loving you.

3 years and still counting...

The painting that u've given it to me. and u made it into a card.
The one and only card in the world.

Valentine's day @ Look Out Point

Nice view. But, we we re so disappointed with the food.

Later, hanging out @ Republic

Yea, my bestie were there too! mwahhh!

And, here comes some very unglamorous pictures of us...

I love her so much

And I love him too!

Dafei-baobei-deardear-B
Words can't describe how much you mean to me.
Thanks for everything. And everything.
<3

MOS Tiger beer

ever wondered why the Valentine's post is not up yet?
haha.. i dont wanna simply blog about it, i wanna put effort on that entry so that it'll look lovely. hahaha.
i had a BIG fight today. it wasn't lovely at all.
anyway, it won't change the feelings about how am i gonna blog bout the V day.
Take care peeps.

and im not okay.

U gimme Husky I give u monehhh!!! aaahhhhhhh!

p/s: i still love my goldens.

the bla bla bla

19 days left. then im gonna say bye bye to my student status.
grr.. sooner or later. everyone's blog is gonna appear with the 'entry bout graduation', etc etc etc...

gtg now.
exam is around the corner. THAT CORNER!

[my long lost entry]

Finally my cny entry is up.
But there's nothing special to talk about cause besides self-cam-whored, not much pictures taken. [eh it's cny deh, everyone's gambling here and there, couldn't simply take picture]
I didn't really specifically buy clothes for cny. but i bought 2 boxes.

TEHDEHHH~~!!!

And this

I hate it cause I always felt cheated. [ehmm]
Okay at first i just wanted to buy the base, the bottle at the most right side. Ah then, talked lar talked. Talked more to the sales girl. Ended up bought the masks which price were double of that base. So eventually, rm360 gone. [little bottles were free gifts]

Okay. Back to first day of CNY '09.


Day 2:
Can't remember whose house I was heading to. :p


Day 3, day 4... etc. All self captured pictures. aiya i shy la. hahahaha

Another night,[cousins night] we went to Segafredo. My cousin sister just got back from UK that time. So we just hang around and had some wine. =)


my stupid cousin, izzac. haha


Bla bla bla..
Then i was back to cyber.
It was February. The month of loves. teehee...
Tammy, Jinn, Sek Lee and I went to 21 kitchen n bar again. Tammy, was really steady. haha. I just gave her a call when I was about to pass by her place. And she was here with us!














I LOVE HER IN THIS PICTURE!!!!

We had another wine session after the JD session at 21. =)
Omg lar.. there were mahjong, cigg, and NOTES on the table.






Tiger beer is my companion while writing this entry.

Upcoming entry: Valentine's day. <3 <3 <3

random.

Hellooo Cyber.
There are always stories after I went MIA for quite sometimes.
People are acting weird nowadays.
Some are trying to be the Miss Goodie-goddie type, but somehow there are people still being mean.

I already have no comment on those miss goodies but I have something in my mind for another type of people.

HOW OLD ALREADY, can't you just be generous a bit?

Okay i dun wanna be too obvious cause I seriously don't wanna get involved. but if u really wanna get me involved, you can confront to me alright.

Ok. So, these people, they are no longer friends with that people. [which I think it's childish cause that party didn't really hurt them- just some internal cat fight]
What I can say is, after years when you look back you'll seriously find yourself childish. It's a long-time-ago-issue why must so kek dong right? At first people being nice/fake to say hi then you guys give that kind of face, fine. After that people no longer greets you all, why must u people tell others that the person is fake to greet u all in front of others and ingore u ppl when no one is around? YA, when no one is around? how are we suppose to know. But from what I see, u guys are exaggerating.

When 2 girls are in a fight, usually guys don't involve. Guy who involves, is a female.
You guys should have grown up man. Be generous lar please.

We've decided

Hello.^.^ We've decided. ^.^

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

Just joking due to boredom.

Buhbyeee~~

Daddy just gave me a sweet phone call.
A simple call to send me regards before he went on bed.

I'm happy... *smiling* very happy.

Share this happiness with me alright!

Night.
*WIDE SCHMILE*

Mum's big day!

Hello mummy. =)

Happie birthday to you!

Sorry mum i can't spend your bday with you this year due to the overloads assignments and tests.

Remember I've had written you a card saying that,

'the most precious gift that God had given to me is calling you "mummy"...'


The feeling never change. I still feel thankful, and loved. And it will never fade.

Once again mum, I love you more than everything and I'm glad that I'm yours.

p/s: Trying to make this entry cheerful. But failed, terribly.
Looking back to the entries about mum n bro makes me even worse.

...I miss 'em...

I will be

by Avril Lavigne/Leona Lewis.
(Both versions are awfully fantastic.)

I do it this way =)

Heeee.. Too many pictures need to be arranged and I decided to give up. haha.. So i'll just upload the pictures entry by entry, occasion by occasion. =)

Rewind back to 2 months ago, after jinnoi's birthday,


Then I went to JB and S'pore, remember?
Basically what i've done in spore were just jalan jalan, then met up with my fren bryan, and kheng, and my bro n his gf.. Didn't spend myself for any meal and just bought 2 outfits, a pair of heels, and CD's eye shadows plus those public transport expenses, that trip already cost me around SGD400. i was like wtf.

Went minum with kh at somewhere around Orchard.. I cant recall the name of that place d. err.. Alley Bar? aiya cant remember d lar.


Not that much as you thought. =)

Fooling around with Bryan after drinking with Kh. 1 smthing midnight we were camwhoring all along the streets. And the result I got is, he doesn't have much expression. HAHAHAHHAHAHA. (He doesn't read my blog yo! lalalalalalalalalala)

TOLD YA!

Then erm. the next day. I got this top when bro and I went shopping. =)

I did not buy this topshop dress, cause,

bro: WHAT? so little cloth costs sgd100 u sot d ah?!

me: ok la... -.-

Sushi for lunch before I headed back to JB.

Jo-Lynn and Bro.

He'll kill me too if he sees this. :p

Okay I hafta stop here.

Upcoming entry: CNY '09

NIGHT!

super random one.

I wanted to blog. But I've been sitting here for like 30 minutes and still have no idea about what to write.
It's raining outside.
So hm.. come back to you after my long nap! hehe...

TOODLES!

tattoo

Jodin sparks- Tattoo

I expected him to come back tomorrow.
then i texted him.

'hey r u coming back tmr?'

Few moment later,

'can't make it, tell mum.'

...
That's my dad.