I need to blog, as in, really blog.
Recently i've been stressing bout lotsa stuff, which I have no idea what are those about.
Another thing is,
my Bday is just around the corner. Somehow the closer it approaches, the more lonely I feel.
Firstly, I need to work on that day itself, and also on the days before and after. I don't really mind since I've decided to postpone it. Alright, here's the matter- postpone.
Without you guys.
I know, I have my family, good friends, and B right here in BW. But,
can someone t e l l how I f e e l ?
I've been missing all of you badly.
Thought of going back on the 14th, or maybe on the 13th since I have off days on the 14th and 15th. But papa's birthday is on the 15th.............
And if I go back, I don't know how is the dinner gonna be. Dinner... I had enough of feeling upset when I went back for xp's bday. I know everyone made an effort to meet of each of everyone and i feel glad and appreciated. But I just have not had enough time with you guys. It was a hard goodbye for me.
I know we're making and will still make effort for meeting ups however timing is really hard to get it right. Sigh...
I don't know, i'm very upset. That's all about it.
I was straying at home for the whole evening, accompanied with Jay Chou's and the pictures. After the rain, the warmth of the wind, reminds me of every bit.
The balcony was at my right, I was on the sofa, looking at the after-rained.
p/s: I'm not going to work tomorrow. I was struggling before making up my mind.
Cried, and stopped and cried. Walked out from the room with my cell phone, called my strong-bond partner in crime, hoping she would say 'ok lar don't go lar...'.
Crazily weeping and being overly dependent when calling her. At that moment I just needed someone to be there. Manatau that fella asked me go to work... But eventually she let me be. Thank u machi.
I was still weeping when I put on the phone. Heh...
I miss you guys so much. When are we gonna have another gaga night?