Thursday, September 01, 2005

be alert..

It's weird right? What's de time now but I'm still on de line.. Yea, I slept at 8 just now. Woke up at 2 then I tried to sign in msn. I didn't realize that I've signed in then when I woke up just now, wow...haha.. lot of msg..
Wanna post up my blog yesterday but I was too tired d.. So..Manage to do it-now~
Hang out with K yesterday. I mean 30th mid night. Jinn them were not around. They rent a car. I was just watching Stairway to Heaven.
why? why I'm so careless? why I trusted people easily? I should be alert ain't I? Even I told my friend that de people outside here are not easy to trust in them but once I got de friend, I forgot my rules. I hate them. They just wanted to gain their advantage on me. When he touched me, I couldn't shout! I did not know how to shout! I was just opened my eyes and that time, I did not know why, my heart was yelling gee, yelling for help.. "Wanna do something?", that jerk asked me. FREAK! I was like nothing to say cz I'm too disappointed! 'n'&'o' spell NO! I said NO! Then I rushed away...
Ha, my mind was blank! They were trying to gain some advantage on me!! C also... When I thought back, feel that he was! When talked with him, he tried to lean on my shoulder. The first time I did not know how to decline it and I was just distracted! Then finding some excuse to avoid his head on my shoulder. The next time, he tried to put his arm on my shoulder. This guy was freaking cunning. He'll tell someone when he wanted to do something, make it seems like a joke but not serious to do that. The 2nd time I rejected that by followed his method- like joking. Then I dodged away from that.
Managed to post this up yesterday but Jinn was here and I failed to do so. Could it be said that my life here is hopeless? How can I hang out with them again? I dare not to do so. I know myself haven't learn how to say "no" yet even simone told me that I should. So? rather stay in my room..

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