Feelingless?

I gave my friends a surprise on Friday.

I thought I'll collapse and lean on them when I see them. Eventually I didn't. It was not as Wednesday night. That night I was mad. Perhaps I'm really numb enough. Even she cried, I was just standing beside her, lent her my shoulder. Console her? I hope I could.. My tears flow indeed. But that time I can't cry out loudly even I wished to do that. I wished to scream, wished to shout; but I just did not do so.

I am so unhappy.. Feel that I am so lamentable... I rather there were nothing happen between U and me if this is the ending... Don't blame me, cause I'm not yet let go.. but don't worry, once i let go, I'll appreciate our memories...