Lonely is de night..

I am alone in my room. Knew that Tamm them went to pg.. with G indeed. Feel that I'm so useless..so inferior..
Lying on my bed.. I cannot let go.. why? why I'm not tough enough? Really.. as she said, forcing urself to let go someone is very very painful.. But.. Chean's advice keep appearing in my mind! I cannot lose.. I cannot get others look down upon me... Especially him!
Thought that when de wound which is recovering got another cut will recover more faster? No.. It takes much more times to recover..
Think of that again.. but? ha..I had no qualify to care bout it.. no more... Feel guilty to me? nah.. just an excuse only lar man...