It's been more than a month i'm under training. Or i should rather say, I've done all the classes, and the following 2-3 weeks remaining are about Assessments and Exams.
Excited yet nervous. I have no idea how well i will do it.
I thought I've done more than I've expected. I greet, I smile, etc., which have also made me
greet smile to people I meet outside the academy.
But, I'm not outstanding. It's not that I am desperate to be the most outstanding ones, but then, it's like there's always something wrong with me. The thick make up doesn't suit me at all, I THINK. The hair, which I thought it's fine, normal and some people think it's not fine. Maybe it shouldn't be normal, it should be, WOW. kan?
Last night I went for aircraft visit, man that was tiring i wanna kill people!!!! I doubt if I could maintain my strength when I start flying and meeting different people out there. Imagining, I'm doing 6 sectors that day, last sector, fucking tired, but still have to smile, smile, and nonetheless, SMILE. I can't behave like what I behaved. UGH! Anyway, that's a good thing though. It's just the matter of dealing with my own emotion. =) [i need encouragement, wahhh]
Heh... I'll be having the Safety Equipments Assessment next Monday. I tak tau lar aiyorrrrrrr.... the stupid oxygen bottles very de confusing dehhh.... and then, water assessments, door assessments... exam, exam and exam..
Heheee...wokay, i'll be right back!
p/s: Damn i miss my friends. All of them.