Thanks once again~

What a meaningful lyrics for me.. Thanks to Shy for letting me know bout it... Thanks a lot...
Sometimes, I used to blame u. You took me away from my hapiness.. My own happiness.. My no-worries.. But.. U brought me happiness indeed.. I feel ashamed on it..
But I know, I'll thank to you in one day. U made me grew up. You made me matured. I learnt from mistake because of you. Not now.. I haven't prepared yet. I still couldn't leave from thinking of my past. I can't release yet.. But I know I'll thank to you..in the coming day.. Shy was right. That is useless for you to do anything while that person had lay u down.. He won't feel anything on what you've done..
Y.Thought that giving up will makes me me happy.. I was wrong.
E.Cause give up doesn't mean that I can lay it down easily...
E.I tried very hard to forget you in months...
B.I realized that my heart still watching you.. .
O.I'm full of miseries in de moment cause...
O.I had not lay down anything yet...
N.Since when? Awaiting seems like one of my usual practice. Felt that I'm awaiting something that wouldn't happen again.. Every memories bring me to the first we met.. It was the only secret between u n me. When I think of the everything of you and me, it was deeply ingrained.. It touches my scars once I think about it..
Persist is suffering.. The only I can do to free myself is to lay down everything..everything..
You became a stranger for me.. A very known stranger...