Please..don't give up...

It's kinda late now. I have no more idea. I don't know to whom I can speak. I switched off de light. When I lied on my bed. I couldn't sleep. I sit infront of my Pc again.. Posting this blog..
I'm not going with them tomorrow. I had no more money. I just left a few bucks. I was countting what I've purchased and how much I'd withdrew according de reciepts that I had. I withdrew 300 bucks here and another 300 bucks at Gurney Plaza. Don't include this yet.. Only the money I've spent at Malacca, over 500 bucks dy.. Not only the money from the back but also the cash that I've brought to here.
I msg daddy after that, he called me. He has no extra money to give me. This answer was in my expectation cause I've asked from him few weeks ago but he didn't give me the money yet. I'm not blamming him, I can understand his situation. I shouldn't got that Public Bank's ATM card. I knew I'll spend it all if I got that card so at first I'm not going to get it. But I have to get one cause I haven't get a new account of BCB before that so I have to spend the money first. So.. I was right! I spent a lot! I have to stop it so I'm not going to use my Public Bank's ATM card again.
I'm not going to let Alex know about it. I don't want him to spend money on me. I called mum and told her bout it. She wants me to concentrate on my studies and not to worry bout this stuff. I know.. But this really spent a lot of money d.. I got a mind just now. I wanna give up.. Not because of myself but my family. I want to be educated. This is a must for me. But I don't wanna be my family's burden.. After my mum's advices, I threw away my mind. I have to continue my studies, even work harder.. This is what I can do...
My groceries are getting finish.. Have to avoid from out of stock. My shower gel.. Have to prepare a new one.. All of these need money.. Everything needs money. I know where was my mistake. I never plan for my budget yet. I will and I have to do it as soon as possible. I'm very confidence in myself bout financing. I know what should I buy.. Although I always spending money.. But I really do know. Believe me...