my mood spoilt...

Tammy told me that she went to Cyn's house just now. She wanted to take camera from her. That fellow fetched her. I feel so lose and down while I got know. Not because I jealous about that, really.. I just feel lose that this couldn't happen to me anymore.. Thus, I feel sad about it.
Freak! Why this fellow always asking someone else to do something for him? He never change!
There's good and bad to begin a relationship... Feel glad that had memories with him.. At least he brought me happiness..sorrow... At least I had be with him... At least...
The bad.. Obviosly.. He avoids me.. What we can do like a friend as last time wouldn't recur anymore... I said that.. He's a known stranger for me.. A very known stranger...
"How's he?", I asked Tammy.. When I written out this question.. I feel so pain. And I dropped my tears. I felt so pity on that.. Like someone couldn't see her beloved and no more chace to meet him, asking her friend 'bout that guy.. Ha..
Asked about his recent develpoment.. Sounds so sad huh... Like no more chances.. But.. Don't I'm right? No more chances... Suddenly de lyrics appeared: I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes.. I swept away my tears...